In 2015 I came off social media completely and just had the numbers of my friends in my phone. I came off because I found it very competitive & pretentious, a place where you would spend time wishing you were someone else and not yourself.
When I was pregnant with Freddie I made an account on youtube so that I could watch helpful videos on pregnancy and motherhood and also daily vlogs watching mums go about their day-to-day lives with babies and children so I could get a feel of how it was going to be, I found comfort in these videos. I would watch mums such as Anna Saccone & Mrs Meldrum do pregnancy updates at the week I was to make sure that everything I was feeling was normal-ish.
Once I had given birth to Freddie and I’d had a dose of dutch courage, I decided to join those aspiring woman and have my own little area to keep memories and provide tips for other woman just like myself. That led to me going back on social media, but this time around I saw it completely differently. I saw it as a place to make new friends, to encourage others and to get that motivation to be ME, but the best version of me.
My favourite bloggers and vloggers are those who are too honest, those who don’t care what people think of the way they live their lives and the way they are just winging parenthood and just happy for you to be part of their journey. So when I had this reassuring thought whilst reading a post the other day I thought I need to come clean.
I’m as honest as I can be in my little area of the Internet, however there is one little thing I have been keeping to myself because I don’t want to sound competitive or pretentious just like those people i talked about before. So here it is…
I don’t find being a mummy particularly difficult
Can I say that out in the open like that for everyone to see? Cause I can because that’s how I feel, thats the truth and thats just me.
I’m not for one second saying I am a perfect mum, I’m not saying I know everything about being a mummy, I’m not saying that I don’t have days that I find difficult or moments where I think god I need 2 minutes to myself, that when I have another child I won’t change my mind, but I can honestly say that is how I feel at this moment in time. (Your just waiting for the terrible 2’s to kick in now, at which point you see my post go up…I take everything I say back…..how do it cope lol)
I don’t know why but I’ve felt for the last 18 months that I need to agree with others, that motherhood is the hardest thing they have ever done, but it’s not.
I absolutely love being a mum just like most of the mums out there, I find it challenging, educational, rewarding and the best thing I have ever done. I think I’m just a person that takes what life throws at me and works with it because that is what I’ve had to do why entire life, so with motherhood I’ve just done the same. It’s the first time in my life I feel proud of myself.
I hope I haven’t come across like a right twat but that’s just my opinion, I’m sure there are many others out there just like me.
Much loveage Loz x